heaven on earth

There are many things one can desire in life - love, the self (freedom), money, career, etc. - the list goes on.

It's fundamentally impossible to have everything all at once, that is why we often prioritize. Schedules will clash, interests will clash and opinions will clash.

Therefore, which is of more importance and value to you? If something is of more value and importance to you, are your actions and decisions saying so? Are they things that last for a long time with an attached sacrifice or something short-lived that gives you hours of pleasure?

I have come to notice that many human beings live by one basic (but subconscious) principle - pursue what we don't have when we have what we have.

There's a saying that goes, becareful what you pray/ wish for (well, depending on which religon you belong to), cause you'll get it. But does having what we don't have result in the happy fairytale ending that we all aspire to have?

I doubt, cause something close to you, something that was always there before, something that gave everything for you; that something has grown tired of dealing with another aspect that you pursue. That something decided that since you want something else so much, there is no point in fighting. Each time you choose to pursue so obstinately and strongly, there's a hurt that sets in. Each time the hurt sets in, something is lost. That's when you think people change.

Well, maybe, but you made the decision. You prayed/ wished for it, remember?